沒什麼大不了

今天晚上我有一點無聊
好想找你聊一聊
可是沒什麼大不了
我可以自己熬
沒什麼大不了
人總是會覺得無聊
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when i say i'm bored, i actually mean i'm lonely. both are pathetic and apathetic (ahaha doesn't that just make perfect sense?) states of mind but unfortunately, i have had my share of loneliness. it's like eating dark chocolate. the bitterness makes it hard to swallow but the hidden shade of sweetness makes you keep wanting more. i say this because feeling low gives you an excuse to not deal with anything at all - this is the alluring part. as an escapist (i wish i could say former escapist. i will have to work on letting this part of me change), i've looked for and gone down almost all the possible ways of escaping from reality. none have proved sufficient except being in my Father's arms.