where do i go now?

as my time in taiwan once again draws to a close, i am, once again, reluctant to leave.


i guess this is the part where coming back after 4 months makes going back even harder than the first time. this is an endless, painful journey huh. i was so sure about myself a few days ago. now that i have a new year, a new semester - a new beginning, i am not feeling as brave as i was before when i still had a lot of time.


God, i need You to hold my hand. why does it seem like i cannot find complete peace and joy in the places i go? the people i meet?